Have you ever lied about money? I sure have. Not so much at work, but in life…sure. Okay, that’s a slight under-exaggeration, but we’ll get to that soon enough.
Now, I’m a funny little liar. I never had a secret credit card. I never hid a bag of new clothes under the bed. Instead, my special brand of subterfuge went something like this…
In my personal life, I would shave off a few dollars here and there when recounting how much I had spent. Even when I’d actually spent very little, like when I bought new lawn chairs on sale for $16 and told my partner they were only $10. This was especially true when said items were ‘extras’…you know, things I didn’t exactly need, but wanted.
But I had worse habits, too –– sneaky ones. I’d buy expensive supplements for myself at the same time I bought groceries. (As if drug store items and groceries were the same…and that my partner would never know the difference!) I’d move over $50 bucks from a different account into our checking account in order to cover a new something-or-other that I wanted…without telling him.
Again, these acts were just “small” enough that I justified them. “After all,” I told myself, “it’s not like we’re talking about hundreds of dollars. Plus, I make plenty of money and I manage it for us. What’s the harm in taking a small perk? I deserve it!”
Ha! What a smart (and bratty!) voice I’m hearing as truth!
At Handel Group, we teach that there are seven categories of lies, and we all have our favorites. I’ll walk you through each one, with a little example from my own life:
- Outright Lying: This is when you flat out lie. Like when I said the chairs were $10 and they were actually $16.
- Lying by Omission: This is when you don’t tell someone the truth, because they didn’t ask! In my case, my husband didn’t ask if I bought anything other than groceries at the grocery store, so I didn’t tell him.
- Lying by Exaggeration: This is when you exaggerate the truth (usually to make yourself look good). This could sound something like, “I saved tons of money on our client trip.” When really you saved $5.
- Lying by Under-Exaggeration: We do this when we want to make light of things. For me, I pretended my student loan debt was no big deal because “everyone had it.” When in reality I ignored the impact that that hefty monthly payment had on my ability to build real wealth.
- Lying by Misrepresenting a Story: This is one of my favorites. This is when we misrepresent what happened in order to make ourselves look good. I do this often when people ask about books I’ve read. “I read the whole book on personal finance!” I’ll say, when in reality, I got through the first chapter.
- Lying by Avoiding Confrontation: This is when you lie to avoid hurting someone’s feelings. Like, if your co-worker asks you to share your honest opinion about his decision to ask for a raise (and you know he doesn’t have the experience to move up quite yet), and you lie and tell him it all sounds fine instead of finding the grace and wisdom to share your actual opinion.
- Lying by Keeping Secrets You’re Taking to the Grave with You: These are lies that are so hidden, goofy, upsetting, embarrassing, and devastating to you that you’ll never tell anyone. Like, for me, the time I stole a personal belonging from a former landlord. Yes –– definitely thought I was going to the grave with that one…until I wasn’t.
I don’t know about you, but I’m personally guilty of lying across all seven categories. My favorites are definitely lying by omission, lying by misrepresenting a story, exaggerating, under-exaggerating…oh, and let’s not forget avoiding confrontation…all right, all right, I guess most of them are my favorites!
Let’s be clear –– like any other member of the human species, my lying trait stems from very oh-so-human desires. To look good. To have my way. To get what I want. Whether it’s to not get in trouble at work, get expensive supplements…or buy new lawn chairs.
Yes. Very much the mindset of an 11-year old.
Sure, my habit of piling up small lies over and on top of one another “worked” for a while. I got what I wanted. But then the pile would smack me in the face. The trouble about lying in this way is that it impacted my ability to achieve my dreams. Until I woke up to how my lies were preventing me from experiencing real intimacy, AND how they were preventing me from the savings account I wanted…I was stuck.
What does it look like and feel like to be stuck in a particular area of life –– in this case, in the area of money?
I had a good income. I was saving into retirement. I felt fairly secure when it came to the future. But despite things being seemingly OK on the surface, I couldn’t shake the feeling that I wasn’t doing things quite right. I alternated between feeling frustrated, guilty, or anxious. Why didn’t I have more? Why didn’t it feel like enough? Why was money so hard?
When I started my coaching training with Handel Group nearly three years ago, I first had to write up my Money Dream. And boy, did I suck at it. It was riddled with negativity and small.
Jill’s Money Dream, June 2016: A weight has lifted. I no longer feel anxious about money or like I’m stuck doing work I don’t like. Money no longer feels like a burden or something to worry about. I do not hide purchases or lie about what things cost. We have enough money to go on vacation and do all the house projects that we’ve been talking about for years. Our house is paid off, we even have extra to invest and the savings are growing.
As coaches, we’re taught that when a person’s dream is small or uninspiring, it means there’s corruption in the foundation, and it’s time to look at the way a person is lying in this area. For me, I was definitely in a spiritual purgatory when it came to money. My seemingly harmless “little” lies about things like lawn chairs and expensive supplements had blocked me. It turns out, I had no power with my words because my words were full of sh*t. When I did the spiritual accounting, and came clean to my coach and subsequently to my husband about all of the ways I had lied AND about the ways I had justified the lies because they were “so small,” I was finally ready to author this area for the first time. I could say, “save money, make more money” and do it. I hadn’t considered the big impact of all of those seemingly little lies on my relationship to money.
Suddenly, anything I said could be possible. See for yourself.
Here’s my new Money Dream: I am a millionaire in my early forties! Our retirement accounts are flush and growing, our house is paid off, and our net worth is nearly $2MM! I coach, write, speak at conferences, and lead workshops. I am compensated so well for what I love. Making money is so easy and fun. Our home is a gorgeous sanctuary. We give generously to environmental causes and are having a huge impact in the world.
So now, fast forward three years. Since making Money a priority area of life to work in, I’ve experienced remarkable change. First –– I’m proud. Proud of the new promises I have in place to reach our ambitious goals: paying off our house (!) in another year and a half, adding to our annual income, and increasing our nest egg and net worth. But the biggest change is my new promise around lying. I made a promise to myself that I’m not allowed to lie about anything. If I do, I have to confess to my husband within 24 hours.
Since making that promise, I’ve broken it and I’ve had to come clean…but my liar is sure in better shape than she used to be. And when it happens, I’m learning to laugh at myself, fess up, and dust myself off.
And guess what!? I have outed my lies in other areas of my life too – like love AND career! My dreams have become bigger in all aspects of my life using the same technique. Take a minute to uncover where your “little” lies are affecting your big dreams and report back!
Love,
Jill
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